Now if only life were as easy as a game of the SIMS 2
A couple of days ago, I decided to pack a part of my room; namely the writing desk which threatened to topple over due to the combined weight of all (ok, not all) my National Geographic magazines and other little stuff like stationery and notepads. And so I went about my spring cleaning and stumbled upon 3 years' worth of tertiary educational instutions' prospecti (prospectuses? Prospecti??). It was pretty sad, throwing all of them away, knowing I have no use for them as I am condemned into spending at least 3 miserable years in NUS. All that planning came to naught.
In addition, I ended up throwing all of my letters from the UCAS away. All those letters of offer, all those packages from the various universities pitching their cities and institutions, all those 'scholarship' offers from them (partial scholarship). Always knew I wanted to go overseas for the long term, but somehow I just couldn't fulfil it. Of course, I could blame my parents for not wanting to pay when they obviously have the means. I did sit (and still am, I have till August to reply, believe it or not, because the universities keep revising their offers from Conditional to Unconditional) 6 offers from 6 universities for a course I cannot do in Singapore. And then I could blame myself, for not landing the stat board scholarship. And then, I could blame the stat board, for not offering the scholarship (although that would really be stretching it). I know I didn't actively plan my way to an overseas university, but I know I've wanted it since I was in secondary school and it really is a shame for everything to come to an unhappy end, in this way. How pathetic. Now I'm still getting emails from the universities on pre-departure briefings and administrative matters (I'm getting emails from the British Council too). Sigh, if only I were in the position to actually tell them that yes, I would be attending the pre-departure briefing. Only that I can't depart, even though I really want to.
I've had a couple of friends leave for Australia for further studies and I was there personally to send one of them off. The strangest thing is that as I saw her hug her family in tears, I actually thought to myself, if it were me in that position, I'd be sprinting towards the boarding gate. The irony, I see people who would probably give it all to stay here and study here and here I am, wishing I could be the one leaving. Life is cruel.
University starts in approximately 3 weeks and the only reason I'm keen is because I'm bored at home. Other than being ill, I'm bored.
If only life were as easy as a game of the SIMS 2, I wouldn't have to worry because I wouldn't have to think for myself. I wouldn't have to worry about screwing up during the bidding process in university because it doesn't exist in the sims' universities. Life would be so much easier. We live life day to day doing nothing except eat, sleep, watch tv, play musical instruments, go to school/work, work on improving our skills to get that promotion and making sure our friends stay with us. Strangely, it sounds so similar to real life, yet so detached, and so much easier.
I'm a 3rd year student in what is probably the largest autonomous university in Singapore majoring in a Science-related subject (well it sorta IS SCIENCE). I'm known to be introverted, sarcastic (at times), funny when I rant (which isn't a good thing lol) and somewhat of a loner. I miss LA and would move there in a heartbeat :(
