As of last night (30/12/2008), I am officially on a 2 week break from my relationship with my boyfriend because things had gotten so out of hand that I decided I couldn't take it.

So it's 2 weeks of trying to get back into a life where my weekends don't revolve around another person (which also means my weekends are essentially spent camping in front of my desktop, which in turn makes me glad that I just changed it earlier in the year). 2 weeks of not having to deal with another person's issues. Because the issues and their frequency, it's tiring and it makes you start looking for an exit strategy. In the end, I decided on a temporary exit strategy and I guess I'll see things are after 2 weeks.

None of us is perfect. We're both flawed. But in this case, I feel the bulk of the problem lies on the other side.

I may be a little harsh at times, but that stems from my more aggressive, assertive, opinionated and vocal personality. But I don't say things without basis. I don't have frequent mood swings, and if I'm in a foul mood, I try not to take it out on people who just happen to be there.

The issues have become too regular for my liking. Different forms of them appear every week or so, without fail for the last month, most probably dating back much longer. If I were to list them out one by one, and if he were to read it, he'd feel hurt. So I'll spare him from that and not mention them. What I will say is dealing with them on such a regular basis has emotionally worn me out, causing me to question if I should stay on. Not to mention the fact that we haven't been happy around each other for quite some time. In a sense, the relationship has gone stale but I don't sense any desire from him to make it work.

From another point of view, I guess the 2 weeks is for him to decide what he wants. Does he want this to work? 'Cause I'm trying to give it a shot at survival but it takes 2 hands to clap. I've been trying to keep this afloat but now I realise I can't do it on my own, I've expended my energy and so I'm taking a hike. What I'm really looking for is the desire to want to make this work, and for him to be proactive about it, trying would be wonderful.

So meanwhile, I'll be onto other stuff, or at least I'll try. It's uncanny how I'm going to spend the last 2 weeks of my 5 week break on a time-out.