Have you ever felt like you were stuck in a hole you couldn't get out of? Sure you have, I think all of us have. I'm now in that sorta mood and it's just not lifting.

Every time I think of school, the only thing I am capable of thinking about is that it makes me depressed, it gives my heart a persistent dull, aching feeling that makes me so sad and tired.

3 weeks into the new semester and I'm already feeling depressed, great.

I don't know why it's like that. Maybe it's because things are just so much more challenging and difficult this semester as compared to the last 2 semesters. Maybe I miss the way things are done in UCLA that I resent the way things are being handled in the university I'm in. Maybe I'm getting a burn out. Maybe I've gotten a lot lazier than I would normally be. Maybe I hate a few of my classes and that extends towards my general attitude towards my studies this semester. Maybe it's all of the above.

The only thing I can be sure of is that I dread school, thinking about it makes me depressed and I actually feel helpless when I think of it.

But life goes on, and I still need to study, despite leading an unfulfilling life.