Sigh, it's about to be Monday once more... 2 tests this week, the good thing is I managed to finish my organic chemistry laboratory report. BUT, I haven't had time to touch on my genetics assignments, which I will have to do tomorrow during my 3 hour break if I even have the time.

2 tests.... OH I hate tests...I should start a countdown till the end of the semester. 25 days to go, I can handle it, right?

You can see it on most people's faces, that look of anxiety, constantly wondering where we're going to dig the time out to actually prepare for the exams. I'm definitely one of them. Sometimes, I actually think that living in the past, by that I mean like during the Industrial Revolution or the Golden Age would be so much simpler. No school, no exams. But then again, I wouldn't relish the thought of being a homemaker. I'm not housewife-material. Neither am I factory assembly worker material. Not in the traditional sense anyway. This is the age for women to take great strides forward yet I've somehow lost the motivation to go forward.

Maybe I'm in need of a change in environment, maybe not. Maybe I need a break, maybe not. I wonder where my sense of direction has gone, and what happened to the go-getter in me that everyone saw back in secondary school and junior college. Tenacious, go getter, determined, words teachers used to describe me back then and now I feel like a mere fraction of that. It seems that I'm always ready to throw in the towel, but I'm never quite ready to give up. I'm not content with the person I seem to be today. I want the drive in me back. Why do I find it?