I was that baby who was born 2 weeks too early just because my mum wanted a Christmas baby. In the end, I was born on Boxing Day, because my mum decided to have fish head curry on Christmas Day
I was that baby who actually disliked her brother from the day she was born, at least the photos say so, considering that in every baby photo I took with him, I cried.
I was that baby that my parents thought was being harrassed by the "spookies" and my mum ended up praying at a huge monsoon drain behind our home in Lorong Mazuki (we have since moved) hoping that the "spookies" would leave me alone.
I was the girl who actually liked my elder brother for the first 3 years of my life, because he would buy sweets home and share them with me everyday after school.
I was that girl who then grew up to hate the same guy because he turned abusive.
I am that girl whose head he knocked against the wall repeatedly when I was still living in Tampines. I still have that bump on my head as proof.
I am that girl whom he almost forced to run away from home because she couldn't take the endless tauntings about how she was "Indian".
I am that girl that he pulled across the road, causing me to fly a few metres when a car (white Honda Civic, I remember) knocked me down.
I am that girl whose only saving grace wasn't her brother, but her brother's playmates (all guys, ironically, I'm mean to guys now) because they would protect her from her own brother.
I am that girl who was caned in kindergarten when I didn't get full marks for my spelling. My skin was horribly bruised and it started to bleed.
I am that girl who cried when she couldn't finish her homework after missing 2 weeks' school due to chicken pox.
I am that girl who had a male classmate in kindergarten who would monopolise the seat next to me in the school bus everyday. On the last day of kindergarten, that fella actually gave me a peck on the cheek (I didn't see that coming! Lol).
I am that girl who once walked past a blind stray cat with my granduncle on my way to kindergarten and took pity on it, ironically, today, my granduncle is starting to go blind =(
I am that girl who was left alone in Tampines Interchange by her mother and brother when she was 5 and left to fend for herself. She resorted to asking strangers for directions and help.
I am that girl who brought every book to school on the first day in P1
I am that girl who didn't qualify for the GEP programme and had to see my best friend go as she got in.
I am that girl who was scolded by my P1 form teacher for not giving a ball my elder brother was playing with during lessons to my mother because he forced me to give it to him. She never listened to my explanation.
I am that girl that my P3 form teacher was worried about when I didn't turn up for school for a week because I was at home, recuperating from my traffic accident.
I am that girl who screamed and cried whenever the wounds had to be washed.
I am that girl who was called "stupid" by my P4 form teacher. I hated him since then.
I am the girl who managed to keep her notorious P5 class in check when the prefects and monitress couldn't.
I am that girl whose mother told her being top in the class for science wasn't good enough and asked why she didn't get 96 marks when the girl who topped the school for science got 95. I got 89.5.
I am the girl who loved being in the Red Cross that she wanted to join HQ but decided not to when she became disillusioned with the workings of the RCY and when they took away the departments.
I am the girl whose own aunt taught her history in school for 2 years, the same aunt signed her Red Cross enrolment certificate and asked why she was being so quiet during Sports Day in Sec 1.
I am that girl who became famous as the course i/c who had to conduct dismissal with a bun on her head. Needless to say, the bun kept dropping.
I am that girl who had a strong dislike for RI guys because one of them tried to make me feel inadequate as a Programmes I/C during course. I still dislike RI guys, think I forever will.
I am the girl who felt the greatest innate sense of pride when we did ourselves proud in Talentime 2002, East District Footdrill Competition 2002 and National Footdril Competition 2002.
I am that girl who initially disliked my squad mates because they seemed to ostracise the non-Chinese speaking people (ironically, I was the only Chinese to NOT speak Chinese) but now wouldn't give them up for anything in the world.
I am that girl who loved her JC class initially, but hates it so now because the people have since changed (from 1st intakers to 2nd intakers) and the newcomers basically suck (most of them anyway).
I am the girl who came to TJC just because my mother wanted me to go to VJC and I wanted to go against her wishes.
I am that girl who would get extremely stressed out during the exam period that she would spend her nights crying and studying at the same time.
I am that girl who wonders if she's even sane to begin with.
(Flashback) I am that girl everyone used to call "Xiao DI" (Little Brother) because I was fat and had a boyish hairstyle. I am that girl who was so fat the IOH had to monitor her weight for 2 years. Since then, I have lost 13 kg. I still have flabby arms and an awkward ring of lipids around my torso though.. (End of Flashback)
I am that girl who wants to escape to some university overseas but knows that she doesn't have the ability to do so because no one would pay for her (I might have to start prostituting myself to get there, lol, of course, I'm JOKING).
I am that girl who always wonders if she was born to the right set of parents and into the right family and secretly wishes she weren't related to them biologically at all.
I am that girl who has never felt valued and loved at home.
Nor outside.
Probably not till recently =)
I am that young adult that went out with you on Thursday and Friday and enjoyed myself, immensely. Thank you.
(P.S. Haha, I actually left out quite a lot of stuff, especially in my sec sch days, 'cause I didn't think they were that interesting... or maybe 'cause I was trying to end the entry ASAP =P . You choose lol.)
I'm a 3rd year student in what is probably the largest autonomous university in Singapore majoring in a Science-related subject (well it sorta IS SCIENCE). I'm known to be introverted, sarcastic (at times), funny when I rant (which isn't a good thing lol) and somewhat of a loner. I miss LA and would move there in a heartbeat :(
