I took out all the comments and the tagboard earlier on 'cause I was annoyed at someone. Now, I'm feeling better (and a lil sick coz I ate too much during dinner, so I'm horribly bloated). It's harder to post comments now, since you can't do anonymous postings unless I decide to flip it back and there's the word verification. The tagboard is gone, and probably will stay gone for a lil while longer because I am too freaking lazy to go get the html code out again.
Of course, I went off on that someone earlier on, didn't exactly lose my temper, but was sufficiently annoyed to be a lil mean. Ok, maybe not a little, but cold towards him. Now I'm feeling guilty *sighs*. Of course my dinner decided to take his side and punish me by scalding my tongue and throat (it was hot, which I didn't expect!). So yes, my throat now feels horrible, couple that with the bloatedness and the queasy stomach I got from lunch, so yes, my night is about to get worse. I reckon tonight will be one of those nights where I feel ill enough to NOT sleep with the aircon on as it will only make me feel worse. On such nights, I need to feel warm to slightly hot when I'm sleeping, not cool like I usually do when the aircon is on. Anyhow..Wiiii... you're not angry, I hope?
I managed to squeeze out an extra half marks from my bio paper 3, so now I have 41/65. No change to the percentage, though it is now a lot close to 72%. Still.. in the 71 range. I'm hoping it'll be enough to warrent an A, then I will really get my first AAAB in my entire JC life. It looks so good, I wish I could see it again on my actual A Level cert, of course, I wouldn't mind if it were better aka AAAA. Heh. But then again, what are the chances of someone getting an A in econs and chem?
Let's talk about accidents and clumsiness. As SOME people know, I am extremely accident-prone. I somehow knock my legs against the wall when I'm asleep and wake up the next day with bruises. Or I kneel on the ground for too long and my knees get bruised after a couple of hours. Or the irritating paper cuts we get that are just so painful, those damn things, small they may be, but the pain they cause isn't proportional to their size! Or depth!! Ever wonder why some people are just born accident-prone? I don't know, but I'm obviously a victim. Let's see... I bite my tongue on accident occasionally, even choke on water, YES, WATER. I managed to get my food to enter the wind pipe and not the oesophagus. I scald my tongue and throat pretty often. And I always end up with cuts all over me for which I have no explanation for. One of which is still healing, one week after I discovered it, two thirds the length of my index finger, till today, I have no idea what caused it. Other accidents I have had include the infamous 1996 car accident where I flew without wings, literally, for a couple of metres. And I sprained my ankle last year, even though I don't really think it was THAT painful, except when my mother tried applying the damn ointment. Obviously she thought my nerves were dead. I did remember a funny sensation involving a "POP!" sound when the ankle went haha. And then, it felt as if someone hit my funny bone except it was my ankle that was sprained. YES, I felt like laughing when I sprained my ankle. After my car accident, I actually got up on my own and walked in a dazed state for a short distance before some passer-by actually helped me to the void deck of a certain HDB block in Tampines West. Yup, crazy me WALKED around moments after being struck by a car, face bloodied and all. Makes you wonder what I am made of lol. I've also fall off chairs and landed on my bum, thank goodness for a fleshy one haha. Near accidents I've had, in school, I've gotten up from my seat carrying my bag (I need a new one..damn..) to almost fall back down onto the seat because I couldn't balance myself, much to the amusement of my friends. Yes, I can be a total klutz. I wonder if there's anyone out there who's as accident-prone as I am. Of course considering that close to NO ONE reads this, the answer would be a No? Lol.
Sometimes I wonder if I hadn't gotten up on my own after the car accident, would anyone have helped me up? Would they have thought I was a goner and left me there for dead? It's pretty obvious I have little faith in the human race. It's the same with the "were they laughing on the inside when I got hurt" after I sprained my ankle. Somehow, I like to think that people aren't that nice by nature. I guess in that way, I'm not disappointed when they do. Of course I don't laugh at others when they get hurt, because for one, I am expected to end up treating them (lol). And also, it's not exactly in my nature to do that. I may sound evil and sadistic, but I guess I draw the line when someone gets hurt. I was recently asked if I had a purpose in life and if I led a mundane existence, to salvage my existence, I said I performed community services (maybe not entirely because I want to help others, but because I like the people who volunteer as they're generally nicer than most people I meet). Suddenly I just sound altruistic and motherly, the motherly part being how I "babysit" my younger cousins which prompted one of them to proclaim that his future wife would have to be someone like me *chokes*. Erm.... ok... he'll find a wife easily, I reckon. Lol.
Most of the people that come to me for first aid will realise I'm pretty hesitant about covering an open, still bleeding wound because when the scab eventually forms, I worry that the scab will stick to the dressing and then changing it would require tearing open the scab, causing futher, unnecessary pain (something you probably won't see other first aiders worrying about?). I guess after a car accident where the scabs of the bruises on your face have to be torn apart twice daily, you tend to associate that with pain, intense pain. That's why I generally don't believe in dressings. For something that happened such a long time ago, I actually remember my accident pretty vividly. Actually, I remember lots of stuff vividly. The time I got left behind in a bus terminal. The first time I had my milk tooth extracted. My first piano lesson. The times I saw hampers being delivered to my home when I was still living in Tampines. My first ice cream birthday cake (and my only one). My first camp in P5. The first person I spoke to in my sec 1 class (Rachel in P6 after we got our postings). The first time I did the morning announcements back in TKGS when I was in sec 3. The name of my kindergarten school bus driver. How his bus looked like. The time I tried to run away from home. The times my tuition teacher would use a 30cm metal rule to hit my palm till it became swollen because I missed the bus and arrived late for tuition. The time my maid pinched my arm and it became bruised. You know, thinking back, I realise I actually enjoyed living in Tampines more than I do here. I don't know, it felt nicer. I have some nice memories of there, despite the countless ugly ones I have. Here, where I am currently, I don't know what I will remember of it if I were to move away one day. I don't know, maybe I'm just miserable.
I loved primary school and it passed too quickly. I hated secondary school but moved on to JC and found out I loved sec school relative to jc. And now, I'm about to leave JC as well, I wonder if I will find out that JC is better than what's in store for me in the future. I loved Tampines without knowing it and hate Loyang, if I were to migrate, will I find out that I actually love residing in Singapore? When I was young, I couldn't wait to grow up, now, I still can't wait to grow up but not as eager as before, will there come to a stage in time where I don't want to grow old anymore? Everytime I pass by the block where I used to live, I would have this urge to take the lift up and have a look at what happened to the place I spent by first 8 years in. That sounds crazy. I wonder how much has it changed. I remember the next door neighbours had 2 noisy dogs, much like me now. I don't think I would mind living in a HDB flat if it were anything like my old neighbourhood.
Blood test results came back on monday. Came back normal. So I am cancer-free. But the lymph nodes are still swollen. I'm taking some cream for the rashes on my neck now, hopefully the swelling will go away with it. I probably spent close to $120-140 on medical expenses alone the past 4 weeks. Ok , gotta get back to work. Cya
I'm a 3rd year student in what is probably the largest autonomous university in Singapore majoring in a Science-related subject (well it sorta IS SCIENCE). I'm known to be introverted, sarcastic (at times), funny when I rant (which isn't a good thing lol) and somewhat of a loner. I miss LA and would move there in a heartbeat :(
hmm.. glad to read about your blood test. hahah why not just go up for once and take a look at your old house? it's not wrong mah...