Oh wow, blogger still looks screwed up on my screen. I just came home from the DBS building from some seminar on the Singapore economy.
First up, the seminar itself. It was ok, a little boring to me, at least the first 2 speakers were fine, the last one really pushed the limit. The previous 2 limited their time to 30mins whereas the last speaker spoke for an hour. It didn't help that I wasnt exactly used to the seat, which eventually gave me a backache. I guess I went there with a pretty warped mentality, that it was an obligation I had to fulfil rather than something that I really wanted to attend. This is what happens when you force people to attend events they don't really want to go for. So yes, I was glad when it finally ended, albeit close to an hour later than expected.
Been surfing around forums lately, one of which is a UK forum which is frequented by British teenagers (as expected), and I'm sickened at the way they think. If I didn't know better, I would have left thinking Brits are all immature, shallow, racist and self-centred. It is annoying (was then, still is now) to see how they were calling Asians in general stupid. Excuse me? It is generally believed that Asians are the smartest race, of course that is according to some local politician who I shall not name because he is too prominent and I might just end up with a lawsuit. Moreover, is it a surprise to see that Asians are dominating in international mathematics and science competitions? In lieu of that, I wouldn't dare call Asians stupid.
Went out last night and I caught Dukes of Hazzard. I guess there wasn't much of a plot to follow, one of those movies you just sit through and enjoy without having to think about anything (but then again, when was the last time I had to think when it comes to movies? Lol). But Dukes was more of a no-brainer, just for fun (not good, clean fun though lol) kinda movie. I guess the guys would flock to see it, and I see it very much as a guy's sort of movie. I mean, seriously, come on, car chases, crazy stunts involving flying cars and Jessica Simpson who seems to strip a lot in the show so the guys get to look at her cleavage probably close to a dozen times during the show. Of course it's a guy's show! So what? Male, macho kinda chic flick for guys? Heh. I'd give it credit for being funny, but at the end of the day, you don't really leave the theatre with anything (except a good amount of finger-playing lol, if you don't get it, never mind, means it wasn't for you to understand in the first place). Pretty stereotypical movie though. It shows that women are generally ready to use their bodies to gain the upper hand (hello?!?! Not all women are born with killer bodies, and doing that is rather derogatory) and men are ready to do anything for a good looking women who flashes her assets at them (seriously, I wouldn't know how the guys would feel about it. For all I know, it could be true *shrugs*). So, yea, at the end of the day, to guys, the movie's great for you, for girls... well if you think like a guy... go for it? Otherwise, don't, seriously, every lady I saw last night was accompanied by her S.O, so yea, you know why they were there haha. Funny, but not your typical kinda chic flick funny, but guy kinda funny. Btw, I thought J.Simpson whored her way through the entire "These Boots Are Made For Walking" song. Yes, to me, it sounded whore-ish. Minus points for that. I don't know, the guys may be getting a kick out of it. 2.5/5 stars for being somewhat enjoyable. I'm being kind, alright? I've seen people give it 1/5 stars lol.
Saw Sharon (1st 3 months classmate) on the bus yesterday. It was well...weird. Back then, we seldom spoke. She skipped school, didn't do her homework and basically.. was AWOL a good portion of the term whereas I was always around, did my work, studied for my tests, and basically, being the typical me I usually am. Obviously, 2 people like that will not click and that was what happened. She asked about my results, I said ABB, and she started gawking. Ok, so I did better than expected, but there wasn't a need for such a huge reaction. Anyhow, she mentioned that she didn't like 2 people in the class (at least) and I commented that it could be that she's just so different from most people that they have ever met, seriously, I have never met anyone like her before. And it got me thinking, you know, she may dislike me too, seriously. She keeps hearing rumours about how I get straight As from my current classmates (when it is obviously not true, I haven't accomplished that feat, YET, I hope). And well.. it's pretty obvious how people in my class seem to have a knack for shooting down people who actually take the effort to study and do well in class. The superficiality of it all is no longer surprising to me, except I wasn't expecting it to come from someone in my first 3 months class, a class that I actually liked. Now, I don't know, I don't like it as much know, realising how ostracised I am everywhere I go.
Ostracised, I haven't used that word in so long, but yes, I feel ostracised. I've been called obsolete, cold-blooded, proud and a lot of other things. I've been made to feel unwanted, useless, ostracised and like a complete freak. I don't know, I'm probably just a demerit/undesirable good (in economic terms) to society.
Proud, I remember the day I was called that. Never really thought of myself was proud. Yes, I will show my joy if I do well at exams, I do think that I worked hard enough to earn those grades even if I didn't expect them. But I don't call that being proud. Even if you think so, then I reckon I've earned the right to be proud. But still, I will not walk around and compare my grades with my friends because I know that there is that possibility that they may not have done so well or that they would rather their grades remain private. I don't even know what is it that I've done to be called proud. Of course, that incident happened years ago, in 1999, but how do you forget being called proud? Proud stems from pride, but everyone has their own pride, does it mean that I value mine then I become proud?
It's impossible to please everyone, but how is it possible to offend close to everyone?
Perhaps I need some form of release, or maybe I need a new life, coupled with a new personality. And maybe new memories to boot.
Most of these shouldn't even appear here. For one, it's not exactly suitable for public reading, and then again, who really wants to read about how I think and what I feel? It probably should appear in my other blog which I have conveniently locked up. I just can't be bothered to transfer it over now.
P.S. Great.. just what I need, some bugger capitalising on my blog for publicity -.-'''
I'm a 3rd year student in what is probably the largest autonomous university in Singapore majoring in a Science-related subject (well it sorta IS SCIENCE). I'm known to be introverted, sarcastic (at times), funny when I rant (which isn't a good thing lol) and somewhat of a loner. I miss LA and would move there in a heartbeat :(
