I look at my study plan and I actually shudder. I have no idea if it can be done, but I'm going to try anyway. It's not like I have another alternative other than to NOT study and FAIL the semester, right? So I am going to go crazy and start studying into the wee hours of the night.

I'm into my 11th chapter for Organic Chemistry and so far, it's been only revision for the topics that I have already studied for thanks to the Organic Chemistry CA. All hail the Organic Chemistry CA for that. I have no idea how I am going to pull off the new chapters not tested for any of the CAs.

2 days into my Reading Week and I'm having cramps. GREAT *rolls eyes*

I need motivation and the motivation of Friday night lasted only .. a night. SHEESH. Need more motivation. Quick, someone dangle a 5 figure sum cheque in front of my study table to motivate me to study.

I have a friend who loved biology and chemistry in junior college and admits that her university (one of the 2 in Singapore that offers life science courses) is making her hate science. Shall I say something?

DITTO.

I've been a biology nut since Secondary 3, and I was 15 then. If the GCE 'O' and 'A' Levels weren't enough to make me hate biology, I wonder what can. Turns out that any local university is capable of turning the most passionate person into the most dispassionate person. For one, I am starting to hate biology-related modules as well and I am starting to wonder if I would have liked it better if I were doing Economics. However, I am here, plus I don't have an alternative other than to keep doing what I'm doing and push through the final years of my academic life. If I hate it so much, I may not even want to further my studies. I need to find modules I enjoy, and it doesn't help that my compulsory modules are mostly modules I DON'T have the ability to enjoy.

Does anyone wonder why does university life in Singapore have to be so monotonous, hateful and dreadful? We're bombarded with meaningless events, made to take part in activities so our student profile looks good and sit through hours of lectures that we know more than half the students couldn't be bothered to pay the least bit of attention. All this in search of one miserable piece of paper that's supposed to make life easier. I don't have an issue against extra curricular activities, but when people do it for the sake of scoring points and pleasing employers, that brings things into a whole new perspective, it makes the whole point of extra curricular activities pointless.

It never ever helps that I live across the country from where the university is located, so everyday, I literally travel from east to west and back to the east. I miss my '20-45minutes away from home by bus' junior college. ARGH, I feel like crap now. I feel like shredding my textbook. I have a cold, I feel like crap and it's erm 6 freaking days to my first paper. YIKES.